#70

i wish i wasn’t so scared of everything

#69

so many weird things happen in this house, in all our houses. to our family.

i feel it too, i feel like something ghostly is around sometimes when i’m alone

but then i think, the more you think about those things and the more you start to believe in it, you’re kind of indirectly asking for more

and i’m so scared of these things but i want to know why these  things are happening

i dont know, my sister and i always had expansive imaginations, i kind of thought maybe our imaginations led us to have suspicions of ghosts or stuff like that and made us think about a ghost’s presence more, therefore letting us factor in the possibility of being near a ghost when we’re wondering why strange things are happening

my dad once saw something fly past when we was outside at night, but it was too fast for an animal

my sister once saw a white hand, legitimate footsteps that were clearly inside the house when she was alone, and a lot of other things, i mean a lot of real things

i’ve just felt unsafe, i don’t think i’ve had any experience with any ghostly things. maybe once when i was little. 

but the more i write about this, the more scared i get, like right now i’m so paranoid

and its dangerous exploring the places people don’t tend to go near 

to some extent, i feel like it makes you vulnerable to the odd things that happen when ghosts interfere with lives

more often than people who stay out of it and don’t involve themselves into discovering 

i want to one day find the source of all these weird things happening

i’m too scared living like this, i joke and say i’m paranoid but i really feel odd and insecure…all the time